i am 12 years old sometimes i really want to kill myself at sometimes i garb a knife and cut my finger but than later in the day i don’t want to die or i want to kill somebody else and make a whole plan about it and almost did it i thought about killing my family i told my parents about this and they did nothing and my dad just said ‘no you don’t so stop lying’ and it’s been getting worse and worse and worse
That’s how I feel sometimes, it’s like I can’t express how I feel to anyone. If I do they don’t believe me. I don’t have anyone to talk to and I’m also 12
same and i don’t the courage to ask. i’m also 12.
I’m also twelve. My family is not good with these things – my brother is suicidal as well and my parents deal with it in all the wrong ways. I am a social outcast and the few friends I have are as toxic as you can get and I’m losing them fast anyway. When I’m in these social situations, more things pop up to make me hate my life, but when I’m not, it’s even worse because I have a chance to overthink and go over it again and again in my head, scrolling through all the things I did wrong.
But that’s beside the point. Pertaining to your issue, it sounds like you have a very specific type of OCD and a dose of anxiety and/or social anxiety to go along with it. My advice – DO NOTHING. Reach out for help if you want. FIND SOMEONE WHO IS NOT WHATSOEVER CONNECTED TO ANY EVENTS IN YOUR LIFE. A therapist/new therapist may help, as they are objective in their help and have no prior knowledge – you can explain it how you see it, which is really the truth of the situation in essence, and it should help. No need to tell your parents if you’re not sure how they’ll react – you can do it when you are ready or when you are starting to get a little better with these coping mechanisms. And referencing back to what I said before, again – DO NOTHING. Keep rubbing/wringing your hands. You didn’t have a coping mechanism ready when these things started and so that one built itself in, but now it’s ingrained into your being. It may make you seem weird and may give you a little bit of social anxiety, but that is a small price to pay. As long as it doesn’t directly harm you, for now it’s ok. Keep doing it. It’ll make you feel better and handle these things better. And remember – THAT ISN’T THE PROBLEM. The problem is the mental health issue that it comes from – maybe OCD or anxiety or something of the like, in my opinion. Go to the root of the problem. Take it as slowly as you need to. This is not a competition – it’s life. YOU HAVE TIME. Just do it YOUR WAY on YOUR TIME. You can take away the wringing/rubbing hands later, when you’re ready, but right now it acts as a shield, and that’s good. Monitor it. Now that you know, control it. Use it to your advantage.
I wish you all the best of luck, my friend.
i am 12 years old as well. i turn 13 on march 25. i got ‘70% suicidal’ on this quiz and i think it’s more of 80%. i get bullied for my sexuality (im pansexual) and my height (4 “9). i feel like nobody understands when i say i was 5 years fucking old. my foster dad raped me when i was only 11. he also threw glass water bottles at me and threw me outside when i was crying because it hurt the dogs ears. i love my gf and i act the way i act because i grew up around rapists and drugatics and alcoholics. i say i hate my dad but i don’t. i think i just need a dad, not just some random guy my mom marries but the man i grew up with. but he now lives on the streets and does drugs and has babies with random women. i hate myself and my life.
Act now if you’re struggling with thoughts of suicide or self-harm. You’re not alone, and help is available.
Harming yourself or others is not acceptable or safe. Reach out to a trusted adult, like a parent, teacher, or counselor, immediately and share your feelings and experiences with them. They’ll assist you in getting professional help and support.
Additionally, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK or text “HELLO” to 741741 to connect with a crisis counselor. Trained to support people in crisis, they’ll provide you with the help and resources you need.
i did tell my parents but they did nothing about and i’n afraid to call
It doesn’t help
Don’t lose hope if your parents didn’t take action after you shared your thoughts of suicide with them. Help is readily available and there are caring individuals who want to support you.
Reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, a confidential and free service for anyone in crisis or in need of support. Trained professionals are available 24/7 to listen and provide you with resources and options for getting help. Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or visit their website https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org for more information.
Remember, your parents may not know how to help or may not have the resources to do so. They may still care about you but may not know how to show it. Give them another chance to support you by having a conversation with them and letting them know that you need their help and are seeking professional support.
Look up ocd toughts thinking about killing your family might be because of those, don’t kill yourself Jesus loves you, someday you will grow older and it’s gonna be easier. Do you have older sibling or grandparent who could help you ? Or maybe teacher or friends parent. It’s very good that you are asking for help.
I am also 12 and having suicidal thought and im afraid to tell my parents because my mom is studying social work. I suggest writing a poem or story about you thoughts to get them out of your head and on paper. I did that and it helped sooooo much. Even try writing your thoughts down the ripping them up and throwing them away do the same with the story or poem.
Ive preteen much had depression and anxiety since I was born. I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts since I was 6. I’m 13 now and still struggle with them. I feel scared to tell someone because I’m the quiet and sweet kid and I don’t want to get a bad reputation so I don’t tell anyone anything.
this is exactly how i feel idk what to do anymore tho because i feel like i want to die and make a plan but i’m so afraid of the pain i will go through before attempting so the pain makes me rethink but sometimes i think i just have to do it and get it over with and be dead after the pain.
I’m living through that too. Were on the same page.
hello, you dont know me and im sure you probably wont come back to this but im currently 11 going onto 12, nothing can change the way people feel about them selves they can have something happen to them thats horrible but its not a reason to die. all of us are here for a reason and i hope u can find your reason. i love you and alot of people must love and care about you too even if you dont think so. your life is not a movie so dont end it.
I’m 13 and for 2-3 years now I have been suicidal but there is always something stopping me, I also sometimes harm myself and once I had a breakdown in school and got quite aggressive (I pushed one of my friends hard). After that I was offered school therapy but my parents refused.
I know what your going through.